Picture Perfect

My sweet older sister was in town with Lucy for a few days visiting my mom, and Tanner and I made it priority to be with them while they were in Logan. One thing about Jen is that she is not afraid to speak her mind, and is convinced she is always right. :) We got into a discussion about what one of our traits would be that would only get worse as we get older. We all told what we thought each other's would be. Jen told me mine would be that I always create a picture perfect life. When I talk to her on the phone, I always tell her everything is great, I am happy, life is good, Tanner is wonderful, etc... In reality, it is not all perfect. I guess I am just one who wants that picture perfect family and doesn't express my real feelings. So here is me "undoing" all the picture perfectness.
These past two days have been long, tiring, hard, and not fun!
 Yesterday:
1.  I was up at 7 am, only having got a good 5-6 hours sleep, continually interrupted.
2. Tanner didn't want to take nice long naps for his tired mom, so I was up all day trying to entertain a sleepy, cranky, but cute baby.
3. By the time 5:00 rolled around, I was tired, had a headache, was stressing over what to do for dinner for Jesse - I want to be that "perfect" wife with a clean house, dinner on the table and a happy baby. Not happening.
4. Tanner fussed and cried for too long. I finally just took him outside and he sat on my lap looking at nature. We literally set in silence for 50 minutes outside.
5. Jesse did't get home until close to 7:30, so we did quick, easy wraps for dinner.
6. Tanner was a pain to put to bed.
7. Side note, all day through his fussiness he kept grabbing at his ear. Ear infection?
Today:
1. Tanner woke up at 1 am and 3 am - I finally put him in bed with me and he slept a good solid 4 hours. Jesse got moved to the floor, but like it.
2. We up to Logan for a doctors appointment - he cried, no screamed a good 20 minutes in the car! No ear infection, but could be teething.
3. Cried - no screamed - another good 10 minutes on the way back to Ogden. Once in Ogden, he woke up and cried - no screamed - another 20 - 25 minutes. Got him calmed for a good 15 minutes and then he screamed for another good 15 minutes!
He is now sound asleep, after fighting it for a while. We will see how tonight goes. So, my life really is not picture perfect. Maybe I like to portray a perfect life because it helps me think of all the positive and good things instead of reflect back on all the hard times during the day. Or maybe I like to portray a good life because that is what helps keep my spirits up. Whatever the reasoning may be, I do not have a perfect life, but it is darn good!
Love you Jen!