So In Love

It is hard to describe the instant bond, connection, and love a mother feels for her newborn. I have always heard about it, but experiencing it is so different and powerful. I am so much in love with Tanner. He is my everything. I would do anything for him. I love Jesse and would do anything for him, but a mother's love is different from that of a spouse love. Tanner has brought so much joy into our family in just 3 days. He is such a good baby. Sadly, he has to lay on a phototherapy bed all day to help with jaundice. His skin color is more yellow than white. We have already seen improvement after leaving him on it for 5 hours yesterday. In one of the pictures you can see how yellow his face is, but how white his back is getting - his whole body used to be that yellow. Jesse gave him such a beautiful priesthood blessing last night and we all feel so comforted and know he will get better. The hardest thing is watching him on his little phototherapy bed crying and I can't do anything about it. The only times we can hold him is to feed him, change him, or bathe him. I try to extend the feeding times to an hour or two so I can hold him that much longer. :) He is such a cuddler and I love it!